Nightsweats
This kidney stone is killing me. It had me sweating it out and in pain most of the night. I was able to get some sleep luckily. I went to bed early, after LOST, because I was jsut drained from being uncomfortable. But now I am up early and plan to get lots of studying done.
I got my flight info for Cupertino and the rest of the information should be arriving today via FedEx. I am getting excited.
I am almost ready to fire the silver pendant I am working on. It should come out pretty cool. I spent the past couple weeks adding layers to the handmade paper, so hopefully it will have a cool texture on the back once it burns off.
As for he mental state of mind, I feel i am doing pretty well.
I have been doing the things I need to do to stay centered and balanced. I have also come to some realizations about truths about certain situations and people involved in my life. That helps a lot.
It really has nothing to do with the people places and things, more on my perception of it and what I decide to hold on to. Letting go of what was, or even more, the idea of what I percieved and fanttasized it to be has been the toughest.
As in most relationships, while I miss the person I was with, I find it more that I miss the idea of that person, place or thing. . I really miss just someone/something to be comfortable with. It may sound shallow, but it is the truth. That usually happens when I am not comfortable with myself. It happens. Luckily I am getting back to that spot and am pretty comfortable with myself now.
I just dont want to get to that other extreme again where I am so focused on what I am doing that I am unable to let anyone in.
enough vomit for this morning…off to study, and hopefully pass a stone.
Posted on Thursday, January 12 2006
Author: FEJ
Filed under: Jewelry, Personal, Rantings, Training
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