There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You seek problems because you need their gifts. -Illusions – The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah” by Richard Bach – 1977

There is a lot potentially overwhelming things in my life today. My lead position at work, the economy, my marriage, daily interactions with people. If I let it, it could crush me. But I won’t let it. What will I do instead? Let it out, and keep moving on in faith. This entry is mainly for me, but if any of you readers wish to comment, or can relate, I welcome it.

It is well known that economically, things are shitty. Banks are failing, jobs are harder to come by, and the cost of living keeps going up. Recently, in spite of knowing these things, we have made some major decisions and have to do our best to keep moving forward. Mainly, Katie has quit her corporate job to go to school to get a certificate in a field she loves. What does that mean? No $40/hr a week steady paycheck. She still will be doing the equine therapy to offset some of the costs, but it is not the same income we had. Will it be tough, yes. It has taken me a long time to be comfortable with this. I created lots of financial insecurity in the past, and have worked hard to clean that up and get ahead of the game. Living in Orange County does not make it any easier. The cost of living is outrageous compared to some other places we would like to move to. Those are things we are planning for, but we have to take certain steps now so we can make the move right (Saving some money for the move, rent, etc..) Can we live through the 3 months she is in school until she can get another job? yes. She already has had offers for jobs, she just needs certification. Anyway, her other job was making her life miserable and I would rather cut out some “wants” and see her quality of life go up than make her stay there. I am a big believer of do what you love, the pay in the long run is better.

Am I scared that things might not work out economically? A little. If things get tough, there are things we can cut out, like cable TV, etc… (But not internet …der :-) and we could cut that if we really had to) I have learned that as the saying goes, money isn’t everything. It can help, but when I learn to live with the basics, everything is a bonus.

I am overpaid every day with the life that I have, and have everything I need. Sometimes it takes moments like this to remember the simple things. I have people around me that love me, and more importantly that I love them, a roof over my head, food to put in my stomach, and a spiritual connection with a power greater than myself which gives me that faith.

No one ever said life would always be easy, and the next couple months will be hard, but the payoff will b e worth it, no matter what. I could chose to pull the covers over my head and hope it will go away (which was a favorite thing to try years ago) or I can trudge through it with my head held high. I chose the latter. I am a firm believer that if your not living, then your dying.

Honestly, I am a little scared about the next couple months, but am excited.  

“Avoid problems and you’ll never be the one who overcame them.” ―“Running from Safety: An Adventure of the Spirit” (Richard Bach)